October Theory is Real
this is a bit pale compared to how it all went down. I'll get better at this. Maybe.
Sometimes I catch myself in the grip of trying to recreate a “good thing.” Like one time I (easily) woofed down an entire bag of popcorn after having a good (comedy) show and now it’s become some sort of pavlovian response. Make people laugh = popcorn reward. How entertaining. I think it’s so so sweet and stupid that us humans do this. Sometimes always often, we let our habits and beliefs, no matter how small, bind us to the past.
There are times at work where I am required to file charts in alphabetical order which mostly means there are chunks of time I spend singing “abcdefg” “h.I.j.k.” “qrs” “abcdefgh” “lmnop.”
Striving for perfection is soooooooooo creepy. Should be banned.
My Scuba girl turned 2 on the 4th. I FaceTime arrived at her birthday party during the height of opening presents. It felt like I was watching a home video in real time capturing nostalgia before it bloomed. I was wet eyed for a week.
Thoughts on an emotional first aid kit? Technical feelings vs. Emotional feelings. I’m working on dissecting this one. Circle back.
Why did every millennial want to be a marine biologist????????? Because it was cool?? Genderless?? The perfect combo of smart and cute?!?!?!
I’ve been weaving in and out of researching the term “glass children.” If you know, you know and I love love love you.
“the sluttiest thing a girl can do is share her writing.”- I don’t know who said it, but someone said it and it’s true.
23andme selling our genetics- that’s bad, right? I don’t know why or how it’s bad exactly (YET), but I know it’s not so good. Other things I know that are not so good (besides the obvious)- plastic wrapped cucumbers, multitasking, sex in a jacuzzi.
Thinking about getting back into drinking Diet Coke. For nootropics you know? You see, aspartame, is made up of two amino acids, aspartic acid and phenylalanine. There are a bunch of studies (of dubious quality) showing that phenylalanine is good for focus, mood, restlessness, stuff like that. The most powerful people we know and also hate the most drink like 7-8 DC’s a day. Maybe drinking one a week will give me a healthy dose of spite.
Can’t stop (trying to) say the words cicatrix, panacea and titivate.
Anxiety has a false promise and it is control. Anxiety is also a Democrat.
What’s with the nauseating stomach churn right before you have to advocate for yourself?????
I ate a life changing Lambwich at Honey Hi this month.
I truly believe the *best* thing you can do for yourself and others is to live the happiest life imaginable. To be able to define what it is that brings you joy, peace, love, harmony and strive to collect and embody that for all of your days. Life is so insanely chaotic and messy. Governing power and the systems that fail us are enough- inviting in more bullshit to the mix is propostourous.
Been picturing myself inside my own flubber bubble. I used to just picture a plain ole, run of the mill bubble- but I found it too flimsy, too delicate. Flubber is durable as fuck. That bouncey boy could bump into anything and be a-okay.
3 word style: sporty, sexy, effortless. This is a new goal for me.
MAGIC CASTLE. MAGIC CASTLE. MAGIC CASTLE. (that’s all I’m willing to say about this because it sooooooooooooooooo exclusive and that’s sooooooo hott to me)
While on my morning walk, at around 7am-ish I hear the sweetest honk come from a cement truck, “Beep, beep,” and look over to a man wearing a scream mask softly waving to me. I love October.
Why does it feel like all the food is being recalled.
What I miss most about getting my nails done once a month was it was the only time I watched deal or no deal. I’ve been turned towards believing that show is the most spiritual show of all time.
Halloween house parties with big lights on should be against the law.
Bike riding in Griffith Park cured about 75% of my emotional aliments. Few things are better than flying down a hill.
Homemade apple cider. The witches house. shabu-shabu. Asian pears. Hygge questions. Oh boy, it’s been pretty sweet :)
